here we go.

I realized that the next couple of weeks are going to be somewhat chaotic. a tad eventful. and travelsome. I flew into lubbock this morning; my home away from home. To say that I have missed this dry and ever so flat town would be an understatement. I drove past campus this morning and just about lost it. But thankfully I have already been able to reminisce with a few dearly and crazily loved ones. And I cannot wait to fully enjoy the rest of the weekend with people I cherish. I'll be sure to let you know how it all goes.

Anyways, in the next two weeks I will be going to a big city, a big concert, a big house, and a big...doctor's office? Um. sure. But really, I know that might be just enough info that you desire to know, but I will have so much to talk about, show you in just the span of two weeks. And to start it all off with a bang...lubbock. my sweet and always welcoming place.

I need to reassure those of you who I am not going to see because of these things, even though I'm looking forward to going, I miss you already. I will be back so shortly. You know who you are.

and since i'm posting this in the wee hours of the night...sleep sweetly.

a friendly remark

Quote of the day.

From my dear friend meredith.

I'm going to give it to you straight. And then preface it afterwards. I'm sure that sounded confusing but lets all just remember that I do have a degree.

With a deliberately pointed finger, 'I hope you come back crying'.

Preface.

Meredith loves me. A lot. Right now we are both in the same place in life and happen to live quite near one another. We both just graduated with our undergrad, moved back home, single ladies, figuring out our next steps, and acting like we know what we're doing. Within all of that, we have established ourselves as each others 'interim significant other'. Really just meaning we rely on each other since we are both in a similar area of life. We're all each other has okay.

Well today had just been one of those days. We took a small part of the day to run an errand and grab some frozen yogurt. Tears were shed, then stupid things were remarked as to uplift the spirits a bit. Just good times. Then I mentioned that I was going to visit my friends back in lubbock where I went to college. She was fine with it, I wasn't too worried about that. But then she started referring to things with a little uneasiness. Basically she is afraid if I go back, I'll change my mind, move and leave her here. That was when she made such a remark.

Meredith, I'm not going to leave you. At least not right now. And thank you for knowing just what to say.

Mer has a blog. And it is slap your knee funny. And sometimes very serious. and sometimes abundantly insightful. so check it.

sneak peek!

I just cannot wait, so I'm going to give a couple of peeks into my 'something secret' project i'm working on. Its almost finished, and when it is I will show you more! I'm so excited!

What could it be!

♥

'age appropriate' handwriting

My sweet, older, middle sister is starting her first year of teaching this week. She is being blessed with a daily dose of kindergarten. Earlier this month she asked me to just paint a few things, here and there, in her classroom. The basis of her precious room are ladybugs, polka dots and such. I regretfully post these pictures and before you get any ideas of looking further into this post, PLEASE be forewarned that this is the first time I have ever painted on a wall and I rarely paint in the first place. So please do not judge the follow:

ALSO. My sister said the following before I started, 'I don't want the words to look perfect, they need to just look natural and crooked if need be so that my kids won't judge their own handwriting upon it and feel badly about their own.' Therefore I graciously free handed some positively crooked and naturally ridiculous handwriting on her wall. and it is there to stay, for now.

Lady bugs. Progress.

One giant ladybug, coming right up.

This was a HUGE help.

Can we say 'uh. okay'.

(I felt so bad when the teachers kept coming down the hallway with an interesting facial response to this and saying 'its really cute. what does it say.'

there are the faces....

This is the only picture I have of the finished product for right now. there it is.

Mel, I was so glad to hear about your first day going so smoothly and that you didn't cry. But if you do, that its out of joy and excitement and a love for what you're doing. I hope the rest of this week goes even more smoothly. We're praying for you and your 19 babies. Gosh, you will be such a great teacher! You are a great teacher. Have so much fun. We're so proud of you sister!

inspiration overload

every once in a while I come across things that either inspire new ideas or are just lovely to look at. but sometime, when i see new things or talk about ideas of this and that, my mind goes nuts.

nuts because it is so full of, 'oh my you could make this or this or try doing that! or what about this too...' thats what my mind says amidst whatever is causing the thoughts themselves.

so here is a peek at the things i either plan on trying to do, or are just inspiring in themselves.

{whisker graphics}

{heather bailey}

{heather bailey}

{unknown}

{heather bailey}

{unknown. etsy}

{urban outfitters}

{purl soho}

{blog. unknown}

{unknown}

I try my best to remember where I found each picture and link them back to their owners, out of respect. But I have to apologize because some of these I just cannot remember where they came from.

I'll try to post some pictures of the finished classroom sometime soon!

star light, star bright

so tonight. do you have any plans? say around midnight or so?

well. the perseid meteor shower will be filling the night sky with up to 50 or 60 'shooting stars' per hour late tonight. apparently it is one of the best meteor showers for the entire year and it happens tonight aug 12-13. I have plans to lay outside with a good friend or two, in complete awe of God's majesty and splendor.

I know some have significant others who are fairly distant, but i have a solution for you. you both will most likely be looking at the same night sky if you just lay down in the grass or cement or blanket, whatever floats your boat. so you can both enjoy watching at the same time. how wonderful is that!

and if you plan on being asleep, think again. I just wanted to let everyone know because I was unaware earlier and I don't want anyone to miss out on such an opportunity of sweetness.

have a great rest of the day! its thursday!

for the love of august

Even though it's halfway through the month of August already, I'd like to make myself a to-do list. At least to get me started with short term goals. So I was thinking, what if I showed it to you. I feel that may help motivate my motivator to get things done.

So here is my somewhat smaller list, including some larger goals that will continue on into later months:

August.

For myself:

-watch a meteor shower

-unpack all of my boxes (for the sake of my denial and my parents sanity)

-finish a book

-work out more regularly (its a start)

-finalize plans and go on a trip

-take a visit to lubbock

-finish certain applications

-go to the dentist

-start learning another language

Creative means:

-finish classroom mural

-finish something secret...for now.

-make at least 3 new things

-start learning how to knit or crochet

*if anyone can think of anything I might have forgotten, let me know :)

tennis tuesdays

it's wednesday. but yesterday was tuesday and we played tennis last night.

I really do love the friends that are willing to play with me. My game is lame but i'm working on it. They are so patient.

So update, i'm still not fantastic but its coming along. I think what I need is a tennis skirt and my own racket.

yes, I think that will do.

so faithful. so constant.

I've been thinking a lot about where I am in life. what I'm doing. where everything is going. well that is something I simply cannot give a definitive answer to. I've just graduated from college. applying to graduate school. looking for a good job. getting certain things taken care of while putting all of it in the Lord's hands at the same time. its one thing to say that you're putting your trust in the Lord, and another thing to actually trust Him.

relationship-wise, to trust Him.

health-wise, to trust Him.

directional-wise, to trust Him.

heart-wise, to trust Him.

obedience-wise, to trust Him.

life-wise, to trust Him.

acceptance to grad school-wise, to trust Him.

healing-wise, to really trust Him.

knowing that He knows the plans He has for me & that I most certainly do not-wise, to really trust Him.

I feel as though somewhere in there, fear creeps up and consumes my whole being. and for some reason I cannot get away from it. it makes its way into every aspect of my life. because that is where i feel like i am at. the place of life where I don't know if I will be married or forever be single (to which I would be perfectly fine with either way). the place of life where I don't know where my life will go one way or the other, anything is possible. the place of life where I need to know whether or not God will repair, or allow me to appreciate the fact that I am healthy one way or another. the place of life where every aspect of life is in the process of being answered, but not quite yet. I can see God working, making ways, mending my heart, preparing. I can see it, but it doesn't make any sense whatsoever. I feel like that is just how He works best, at least in respect to my own life.

I need to remember that God does not work around my timing. He is the Maker of creation. I should be able to be okay with the way He works. And when the time comes where I can look back to this part of life and see just how He was making the way so perfectly, I will praise Him. As of now where things need to be mended, where answers would be appreciated, where things need healing, while I wait, I will praise Him. Because I am His child. I am His creation. and He cares for me.

If I didn't have an intimate relationship with the Lord right now, as some don't, I would have no IDEA what I would do with myself, where I would be at. I just used all capitals (of which that usually never happens) so you know that I am serious. So thank you Lord for protecting me, for leading me to make decisions, and being my Father, my Redeemer, my Healer. Gosh I know you hear me. I know that you are for me. I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness. You remind me who you are.

As I type I'm listening to one song over and over again. Feel free to click here to listen.

I would also like to apologize for the repetitive and random type of writing tonight, its just me typing out my thoughts as they are.

you just chose to read the whole thing, that was your decision. I hope it made sense.

are you happy?

I cannot, for the life of me, remember where I found this....it's so simple and logical.

for the most part.

just a late night thought. enjoy.

tennis tuesdays

chelsea, I borrowed that from you!

I played tennis tonight. I should really say 'played'...poorly. It was the first time and I just need to thank the three friends who walked me through it. My patient, encouraging, ridiculous and dear friends.

even with my poor communication, my not so good swing, and my lack of hustle. severe lack of hustle, i will admit that, I had so much fun with you.

I learned three things

- you have to shag. shag shag shag.

- you cannot swing your racket like in baseball. you cannot.

- you have to put your tennis balls in your shorts, skirt, whatever.

Tennis is fun. Its a workout for sure, but such a blast.

Now I am completely ready to shut my eyes. swinging ones arms and running around at night is kind of tiring. Or maybe I'm just not used to the activity. yes. I think that's it.

thought of the day

I think one lives just enough outside of town when one passes people on horses and gets stuck behind a tractor, all at one time.

That is all.

2.10 camp

This past week I was able to go to 2.10 student camp with 180 of the most loving and encouraging students. They made being an 'adult' so easy. I haven't been there since I was a student, which was only four years ago but has felt so long. Three of my close, dear friends were able to be there as well this week, which was just a joy.

2.10 camp is based off of the verse Ephesians 2:10, 'For we are God's masterpiece, created in Christ Jesus, to do good works which He has planned in advanced for us to live our lives doing'.

Camp. Its always a neat time to see God move and shape the lives of students in such a close-knit manner. But there was something different about this group of kids. Something more genuine. Being able to step back and watch them in worship and family talk time and rec, I noticed how different they seemed than any group I've ever been around, much more mentally focused on the Lord. The older ones love and own the responsibility they have to lead the younger ones. The younger ones are starting to realize their place in their youth group and how the even younger ones than they, are looking up to them even now. They lift each other up. They hold great expectations on one another. They worship freely and honestly. It blew me away. And to be able to take part in it with them was such a blessing.

Jaime, one of my dear friends, and I stayed in the 7th grade girls cabin all week. It was a reality check for my age. I never realized how fun it was to sit and listen to all the things middle school girls think and talk about. Apparently they have bucket lists, they have opinions about plastic surgery, they love their moms, and they really love have 'friend night' at camp with older boys.

One night, I came in a few minutes after they had all gone back to their cabins. I walked in to half of our 7th grade girls sitting atop their bunk beds holding hand and singing praises and praying for one another. It was one of the sweetest and most genuine moments I have ever witnessed. They were for real. They prayed with such fervor. And then they had finished, one of these sweet girls came up to jaime and I and said that we could both join them the next night when they do it again. And they were so very serious.

It was a wonderful week. All of the speakers did phenomenally and spoke to not only the students but the leaders as well. I was reminded of a lot of things this week, but one thing the most. I need to trust. I need to realize that the Creator of this universe has me where He wants me. In His hands. And that is just where I need to be. And that because of that, I don't need to be fearful about things in life. I just don't.

That is all I have for now, it is getting late and my eyes have announced that they are done working for the day.

handiwork

Here is a little peak into what I've been working on lately. They're just a few small ideas, nothing too exciting. But I enjoy trying my hand at new things. Sometimes they work out. And other times they really and truly do not.

{tin can re-do}

{still in progress}

{fabric and ribbon flowers}

{instead of spending money on a 'ribbon box', I made one out of this}

I feel like if I post things like this, it might help me to make more time for them. I feel like I always put them off.....procrastination is my middle name.

Bon Iver

Bon Iver, you have my heart. Or at least part of it.

This song itself carries quite a few memories, and love, and 75% of my time in college. So therefore, it gets part of my heart as well. Isn't it just so interesting how melodies and smells and such can carry and maintain such a strong emotion in oneself.

Warning to all. Before you watch this video (which I hope you do, but only if you want to) please know that the crowd shown is a little happy to be there. Some more than others. But I think they're just excited.

So if you need, just close your eyes or look away so you can enjoy it.

Now, if you actually watched that, enjoyed it. Here is one more for you that is really interesting. Its a cappella and sweet.

Enjoy the day!