...when it is right

The past 9 months or so have really been difficult at times. You can read about it here if you'd like. I realized that when you try to make out the plans of your life on your own, God takes those, puts them aside, and reminds you hard and fast that His are far better than you could ever imagine. And the other day just gave me such a huge reminder that taking a heartbreaking step of obedience has its purpose. God wouldn't place something on your heart for absolutely no reason or purpose. And if He hadn't placed it on my heart almost 10 months ago, I wouldn't be where I am right now.

And a few days ago, I was reaffirmed minute after minute of that entire day that He has me exactly where I need to be.

While sitting in the first meeting at our orientation, something felt a little too familiar. It seemed like every few minutes, something was said that would make me tear up. I know I'm a girl, but come on, that's a little ridiculous. No one else was crying.

But I couldn't believe how right it felt sitting there. It felt so right. It was almost like the Lord was saying 'now loren, don't be alarmed but this is going to be a very right place for you and believe it or not, I do have a plan for your life, and its filled with purpose. And part of that is having you here.'

Proof: the same thing happened to me when we were going over our syllabus for my Intro to Marriage and Family Therapy class, fall of '09 at Tech. I cried. In a room of TEN people. Come on. Talk about embarrassing.

So anyways, for the rest of the day, the same thing kept happening. God even provided a handful of girls in the same season of life as myself!

And that is rare, friend let me tell you.

This school is predominately male and the median age is 32. Not 23. So it was quite alarming and quite appreciated.

So that day turned out to be one that I will relish in because God moved in my heart so strikingly. I ended that day just sobbing because of what God continued to provide. And also ended it with a little hyperventilation scare with my best friend on the phone.

But one thing remains the same. I still find myself being an easily frightened...girl.

I recently read a blog post by another one of my best friends about FEAR. Fear, in and of itself, can hold such bondage on our lives from being what it should be. If you need some sheer eye opening, I suggest stepping on over there and reading it.

Just the other day I came across this picture and it could not be more fitting. If you can't quite read what it says I'll tell you:

'You must never be fearful about what you are doing when it is right'.

- Rosa Parks

Those are such simple words yet so strong and true, don't you think?